kierkegaard is a sap

To cheat oneself out of love is the most terrible deception; it is an eternal loss for which there is no reparation, either in time or in eternity.

i-pod wars

"rough gem" by Islands

The world beat you for the something nice
You worked hard, died more
You mined what you died for
Diamonds Diamonds

You can whistle my name
It's the mines, in Africa
That are to blame
You can Scoop out my brain
Shape it into an ear and then tell me your pain

Held death at bay from the first day
Stayed awake, stayed awake
The rabbit was removed under the whole moon
Long Bird, short road

Dig deep but don't dig too deep
When it's late you'll see the hole is empty and oh so deadly

They want me raw but smooth like glass
They want it fast but they don't want flaws
I'm a girl's best friend
Can you cut,
I can cut, 'cause I'm a rough gem

Who lives in those lights in the distance
Watered down, the rain will help you out
I had a dream, it was all a dream
But it was ruined by the sun shining in through me

two characters I know nothing about make an agreement

there I was, an internet singer with a flung away mouse-pad and I tell you, god I tell you, I tell you in the kitchen when no one is looking and you look away and I liked that in the past but now I’ve only got a book-jacket blurb to tell, only two characters so real that they become fiction.

there was a girl in the library during the outbreak. we glanced and in that we made a silent agreement to look away.

is it too obvious to confess to you that the everyday fray gets me down. the loudness seems indispensable out there. an exhalation of breath just behind you in a private moment.

I’m pretty sure that eventually we all get caught out. what to do then. what to say with that information. when things that happen either way in the presence of other things make us want to look away.

edwards drive-in

response to "the wind will carry us" directed by abbas kiarostami--

the was the year there was a bone in the river and none of the goats noticed as they ate. the villagers waited until winter to fuck and a lone man dug up the graveyard. we moved to higher ground but the high ground kept shifting. boys turned turtles on their backs but the turtles righted themselves. most of the work was done by hand in a far-off yellow landscape where single trees stood out a day at a time until they became familiar. men came with machines but the machines gave up the ghost in strange mixtures lacking electricity. field workers wore baseball caps with insignias that meant nothing to them or the countryside doctor who no one ever sent for. we didn’t know what any of it meant, but eventually everything seemed to leave just to return.

edwards drive-in

response to the movie "the intruder" by director claire denis---

that was the year I didn’t want to know. you with your criss-cut fries and your looks into my eyes and your hours and underarms leading to breasts and daily phone calls and stupid overheard bus conversations and the idea of having to return, to always come back to who I am as if it was such an important place to be. sssh, don’t tell me, I’m tired. it’s easier to make yourself sick for two dollars and twenty-five cents on chocolate and peanut butter. then, when you are back, you can go looking in the same wrong places, knowing, but not admitting, that none of your arguments explain the movie or mean anything in the face of all that water.

OED definitions

juicy--

1. a. Full of or abounding in juice; succulent.
c1430 LYDG. Min. Poems (Percy Soc.) 54 Now wesseil N. unto thi Iousy pate, Unthrift and thou to-gidre be mett. 1552 HULOET, Iuycy, or full of iuyce,..succulentus. 1620 VENNER Via Recta vii. 113 The iuycie substance of the Pomegranet is wholsome. 1641 MILTON Animadv. i. Wks. (1851) 195 Those hydropick humours not discernable at first from a fair and juicy fleshinesse of body. 1697 DRYDEN Virg. Past. VII. 80 Nor with'ring Vines their juicy Vintage yield. 1714 GAY Trivia II. 434 Blue plumbs and juicy pears augment his gain. 1860 TYNDALL Glac. 86 The mutton..became more tender and juicy.
b. Of weather: Rainy, wet, soaking. colloq.
1837-40 HALIBURTON Clockm. (1862) 497 The weather..has been considerable juicy here lately. 1868 HELPS Realmah xvii. (1876) 497 It rained incessantly..A juicy day in the country promotes meditation of the most serious kind. 1893 Outing (U.S.) XXII. 139/1 We began the juiciest ride on record. How it rained!
2. fig. a. Rich in wealth, fit to be ‘sucked’ (quot. 1621); of rich intellectual quality, full of interest (the opposite of ‘dry’). colloq.
1621 SANDERSON Serm. 1 Cor. vii. 24 28 Those parcel-gallants that have..no other use of their wits, but to distil a kind of maintenance from juycy heirs and flush novices by play. 1838 DARWIN Let. to Lyell in Life & Lett. (1887) I. 292 You have contrived to make it quite ‘juicy’, as we used to say as children of a good story. 1870 LOWELL Among my Bks. Ser. I. (1873) 30 His own style, juicy with proverbial phrases. 1894 Academy 85/3 His ‘juicy’ way of teaching (if we may be pardoned for a convenient Americanism).
b. In the slang of art criticism: Having a rich colouring suggestive of a moist surface.
1897 Daily News 24 Mar. 3/2 A fine bit of juicy landscape and rich colour. 1898 Mag. Art Feb. 196 The colouring is warm, rich, and juicy; the handling very rapid.
c. Suggestive, esp. in a sexual way; piquant, racy, sensational. colloq.
1883 J. GREENWOOD Odd People 59 ‘Let me play you a tune, then,’ said the frightened lad... ‘All right, then. Play us something juicy,’ exclaimed the ruffian. 1908 KIPLING Lett. of Travel (1920) 153 They interpolated no juicy anecdotes of murder or theft among their acquaintance. 1920 S. LEWIS Main St. ix. 102 The gang..gathered in a snickering knot to listen to the ‘juicy stories’. 1923 A. BENNETT Riceyman Steps I. ii. 4 Accounts of bloody crimes and juicy sexual irregularities. 1929 [see duck soup s.v. DUCK n.1 12]. 1953 [see gang-bang s.v. GANG n.1 12]. 1958 B. NICHOLS Sweet & Twenties 106 Extracting what he was pleased to call ‘the juicy bits’. 1965 ‘O. MILLS’ Dusty Death xix. 177 ‘Aren't you going to give us a look at it?’ ‘Not this one, no. Far, far too juicy.’ 1972 J. MCCLURE Caterpillar Cop xiii. 218 His parents sound the sort who'd run a mile before they'd say the word ‘sex’. They wouldn't have any juicy books in the house either.
d. Excellent, vigorous, first-rate; serious; profitable.
1916 E. F. BENSON David Blaize vi. 119 It didn't often happen that the first ball of an innings was slogged for six. Juicy hit, too! 1922 G. ADE Let. 8 Mar. (1973) 80 The author who has only a few stories ready to market can see no prospect of juicy returns. 1934 Time & Tide 8 Sept. 1122/2 But still, with this juicy price in prospect, the shrewd professionals are hesitant. 1948 PARTRIDGE Dict. Forces' Slang 104 Juicy, (of targets) easy, or well worth the trouble of destroying. 1962 Times 18 Oct. 6/3, I have been thinking of some very juicy ways of how we can use the South Carriage Drive in one of the royal parks.